Limerence and Silence

16 November 2024

I had a million reasons for wanting to do this shoot—I’ve always wanted to somehow replicate a very specific scenario in my life that had bothered me quite a bit, and I had always come up short of ideas. I’ve written about it over the years, but it wasn’t until I spent many hours scrolling on Pinterest and walking around in art museums that I was able to think of this. These photos are inspired by René Magritte’s The Lovers, which I had the pleasure of seeing on all of my trips to New York City this year. Surrealism has always fascinated me, so I wanted to tie this in somehow with that heavy and disturbing feeling of limerence. I could talk about limerence all day, but I’m not exactly used to posting my lore on the internet for others to read, so I’ll keep it brief. The person that I instantly thought of when I shot this has not been in my life for a couple of years now, but this experience impacted me in so many ways, both good and bad—this feeling that I experienced is one, however, that I’ll never forget. 

I originally wanted to shoot this in the grocery store, (as this is where it happened to me), but I thought that replicating it exactly would defeat the whole purpose of the shoot, taking away the entire idea of limerence that I had so hoped to portray (if you’re reading this, yes—you really did bother me that much). To know someone, and know that you will always have lots of love for them, despite their actions and behaviors, is arguably one of the worst feelings that I can think of. Knowing that there is a person out there who is simply living every single day without a single thought regarding you and your well-being is something that I’ve had to sit with for quite some time now, and have finally come to terms with it. 

Limerence can be defined as almost an obsession, of sorts—one that isn’t reciprocated even in the slightest. As someone who has always struggled with unhealthy attachments to people who only bring me harm or inflict it upon me and my life, this shoot was extremely easy to enact. I simply wanted a shot where there were two people who were clearly connected to each other (hence the outfits inspired by the painting) who had both acknowledged each other, none of them acting or doing anything to fill the silence. 

Ignoring someone you know, especially someone who you think you really know, is quite difficult, really. The other shot that is shown above was simply another attempt at portraying a one-sided connection that will never end—these souls will still, always, be tied to each other, somehow. I was hoping that the large gap between the two would sort of demonstrate the silence, in a way, and not the distance—the fact that neither chooses to act speaks volumes, and I’m fairly satisfied with these results. I wanted to make this a series, because I have a lot of ideas regarding scenes with these two characters (that I have experienced myself), but who knows! I was finally able to create a visual for the feeling that I’m sure many others also experience, but I wish that it was talked about more.